For the past two years I have pour countless energy and sleepless nights into growing a business that has still yet to blossom. I've prayed many times if this isn't what the Lord wants in my life that he would take the desire to run a handmade biz out of my heart, but if this was in his will for me, to encourage me to keep going. I have prayed that prayer many times and still have such a strong desire to create beautiful pieces, but I also feel the Lord pulling me back as for 2 years I struggled with making sales.
After seeking wisdom and guidance from some very influential and godly women in my life, they told me exactly what I needed to hear. Funny thing is they have told me this countless times but do to my stubbornness I kept going because I was afraid to let go of my handwork and dream of running a handmade biz. They encouraged me that the Lord wouldn't just take away my desire to crochet and create beautiful pieces because he gave me a gift for that, but maybe this just isn't my season. It didn't really open my eyes until I looked at another scenario.
One of our great friends has been praying for years about wanting another child and has such a strong desire, but her husband doesn't have the same desire. She to asks the Lord if it's in his will to change her husbands heart and if it's not in his will to change her heart. I realized the Lord doesn't always give a straight answer. He wants us to come to him in prayer continually, whether that's a week, month or years of prayer. He wants us to look to him and not act on our own fleshly desires because he hasn't answered yet. His will is far better for us then our own worldly desires.
I have cried countless times so confused about this desire the Lord gave me, but I'm coming to realize that I have been so selfish. Not only to God but to my family. I have put my desire to grow a handmade biz before my husband and daughter all because "This is what I want." No wonder the Lord has not opened the doors for me.
Also having another one on the way and thinking back to Laila being so little and getting frustrated that she would wake up in the night during what I thought was "My time" shows how selfish I really was being. My first ministry should always be my family and home. It's been so hard for me to realize this and letting go of something I have work so hard for hurts, but I'm also so very grateful to realize that my family needs me and I need to put them first. God has blessed me with such an amazing family, why wouldn't I want to pour all I am into them?!
Laila's Charming Pieces will be at a stand still until I feel the Lord has opened the doors. I will leave the shop open until December 1 to sell what I have made and will be participating in Penelope Lane Boutique November 22. But I will no longer pour my energy into creating new pieces for the shop and marketing. LCP will become the crazy life of a wife, soon to be mommy of two and projects I create for our home, family and friends. I may do occasional Insta-sales on pieces I make in between naps, but my attitude towards growing a shop will be shifted towards growing my family.
I'm excited to get away from the overwhelming energy poured into marketing a handmade biz and enjoy what God has already given me. I wont be giving up crochet of course so you can still look forward to projects like baby blankets, scarfs and headbands I create for family/friends and will plan to do small holiday boutiques and craft fairs around Christmas, just for fun.
Have you learned that the Lord closed or never open the door for an opportunity you were really perusing? How did you respond?
I'd really love to hear your story!